Sian!

Amazing DAD

2009-07-08T19:24:00.002+08:00

So lost for words at this moment at this time.
So many bleddy suay things happen all at this time.

Didnt know who to turn to.
Who to speak to.
keeping inside me just feels SO FUCKED!
And i remember i still got this rotting blog.

Facing some crisis and rejection in 1 week aint worse enough.

IM SLAPPED WITH A 170 bucks fines and 8 demerit points for speeding.
IM SO FUKING SUAY LA!!!

Call Marcus' dad and told him what happened.
Concern that i'm a new driver, Dont have points to deduct.
He offered to deduct his points FOR ME!
But he got an entire family to feed, too embarass to used his help as he work as deliveryman and points are important to him.

I called my beloved father and told him what happen.
Was hoping to find some comfort from him after my mum KPKB anyhow kan when i told her.

TO MY WORST CASE SENERIO I IMAGINED!
HE FREAKING TOLD ME "不要害我啦~"

Totally lost for words, tho he offered help to help me find ppl.
So many things inside me and i got no close frens to even share it with.

So freaking exasperated now.
Was really touched by marcus dad offer.. THX 表哥.

KS

11-05-2009

2009-05-12T00:00:00.002+08:00

Amazing. how i can update my blog once a month.
Nothing to update actually.
School sucks. Life sucks.

Just kinda struck me when im on facebook.
That i do have a blog.
A rotten blog full of broken links.
Old information and stuffs

KS

16-04-2009

2009-04-16T03:15:00.002+08:00

Erm ok I think its time for me to update walls of words again.

Perhaps something recent.
Went for ECE FOC 2009' afew weeks ago, It was REALLY REALLY FUN.
Perhaps its due to the fact that im closer to my frens.
Dont feel like im always alone anymore.
The bonding there not only bonds the freshies'
But also the committee. I also got to know more friends in the camp.

Unwittingly, I know 1 more cbk.
Nigel (w/e his full name). He was played by the committee real badly..lmao
Due to some real 'cock' comment he made during the camp. And the punishment?
we made him real dirty with red dye(by terence), Flour (by all those involve), Smelly egg white(ME!! =D), 1 pail of cold water ( cant remember who pour that) and chocolate syrup (by YH)
basically the entire camp personnel was involve in the planning. xD

ps. If u read this and is unhappy about it. Got balls then just bring it on. I got nothing to lose anyway. Yes you paid 15 bucks to get flour on ur face for the 1st day. But on the 2nd day, didnt we make ur 15 bucks worth more? with all the extra ingredient we gave u? =x

On the last night of the camp was also funny.
Colgate games!!! shall upload some pics in my nxt post.
Also sat down with the freshies' and did some Q&A with em. and to my surprise. MOST of em thinks its worth it.

This sentence touches my heart that all the effort put in were not to waste. Although i joined the commitee at the very last min. Also, in the camps, alot of 'tau pok' were involved..lol.

Overall to me, the fun was there, tho' i spoil my car during the camp =( Perhaps its due to the fact that my last camp was my sec1 orientation camp 7 yrs back.To me, camp is a real waste of time sleeping on the floor instead of my queen size bed. Its like paying money to sleep outside and on the floor! But once in awhile, Its cool.

I'm not the type of person that like camp or whatsoever. Even the FOC camp i joined like 3 days before the actual camp date. And it was really fun fun fun.

And on the 17th april, I'll be involve in the IP(used to be known as the freshman orientation programme aka FOP)

Maybe all this involvement make me fill the emptiness in my heart, Thats why i enjoy it real good.

KS

06/03/2009

2009-03-04T11:21:00.003+08:00

yea, rotting blog
Lazy KS has been watching shows and movies online lately.
Totally forgotten about the fact that i've blog.

Even forgot to attend my exam on the 26 feb for my exam =/
Too much 'Happening' things on feb.
The unpleasant happenings.

Having retest today.
after i spent 20 bucks on MC

Got my 'new' car =/
Enjoyed driving =D

KS

31-01-2009

2009-02-01T14:37:00.003+08:00

Back to post here.
Fruitful day spent with xiang kang at the library studying.
Thought i kinda got bored halfway through and start reading TSGH.
After which went to Bugis Junction and catch inkheart.

not too bad for it i would say.

pretty amazing power to be a silver tongue.

how i wish im one..

29-01-2009

2009-01-29T21:02:00.002+08:00

SUPER LAZY KS IS BACK IN THE HOUSE!
yup im back to post. Really lazy to get the photos i took into my laptop.
Pictures of the hundreds of dollars worth of clothing i spend for CNY.
Picture of my new class vehicle card. x=
Oh yea...Happy CNY.

As usual, CNY this year was like a routine.
Sleep till my full, woke up at 11++ bath and get changed.
Wait for Kai's family and went out on their lorry together to my Great-Grand-Mother place.
Sadly, she passed on 6 years ago. How i fondly remembered.
Everyone never fails to gather there every year.
Fooling around with other cousins. Having lunch there.

Even if it wasn't CNY, all of us would gather there every single sunday for a gathering.
After she passed on, Its just like A big tree fallen and all the birds went scattering around other place.Sigh. And though i'm the one "wai soon"( in hokien aka external grandson ).
She dotes on me very much.

Anyway after my Great Grand Mother place, we head over to Da Gu Po house.( Great Grand Aunty)

Dinners there before heading home as usual.
CNY angbao kinda shrink for me. Roughly about 40% lesser of what i used to get.

Finally, this wall of post im gonna press publish wanna write about his Traffic Police Test for class 3.

WOOHOO I PASSED!~
Something to be happy about and something that made me real fed-up.
I got a mere 6 points for the entire test. =D
Not to argue what i thought I should only get 2 points.
He randomly gave me another 4 points. Since i passed. Doesnt really matters
Came back share the news with my mum to only note that she as usual.
'bomb' me.

When i got my 2B license, Every shitty person in my family told me to get a car license.
My mum, my dad, my aunt, etc etc...
I said, i got no money to get a car even if i got the license.
She finally opened her shitty mouth and tell me shes gonna get me a car if i passed.
Those shitty words spurt me to CHIONG~
But something in my head tells me. She's just coaxing me.
I went up against it, hoping its true.
She said "Dont buy Car first, im a P plater, people will disturb me"

HELLO~~ MY BIKES' A P PLATE BIKE TOO..DOES IT REALLY MATTERS.
Made my blood boil. I went to bed till now. yawn.

KS

11-1-2009

2009-01-11T18:33:00.003+08:00

Yup, I'm back to post again.
Been rotting at home as usual, a rotting weekend

New songs peeps..
Check Wang Lee Hom new album, Its pretty cool.
The new songs are nice.

Went over Aljunied Mrt station to get my monthly allowance from dad this afternoon.
Yay! I got money to spend! but nope im not spending em.
Since im not working anymore. I gotta save. Been spending loads recently
Till i remember what else to post.
Bye

KS

9-1-2009

2009-01-09T18:20:00.003+08:00

Yup, been long since i last post.
Firstly I would like to wish everyone a belated New Year and christmas.
School started off this week and BOOM!
First week ended fast.

Gotten back all my result for my module, and surprisingly
I fail none of it?
Isn't it great?
DCNT got 68/100 (the lecturer was freaking lenient in the marking)
MPI got a whooping 57/100. (at least i pass yea?)
And what surprise me the most is my AOOP
Guess how much i've gotten?
ITS 83/100!!!! yea! hell yea!
Wasnt looking up upon AOOP after the test as I thought I screwed it all up.

Event Management ended and im free for wednesday.
Doesn't have to go to class NO MORE! wee

Basically im rotting my days off.
Officially quitted NTUC on the 21-12-2008
And I'm feeling kinda relaxed.
NO more hectic lifestyle, at the very least i get to rest on weekends now.

Hasn't got any news about my signing on result.
If I didn't pass it, im kinda screwed again.

Gotten into an accident and my bike outlook totally chui.
sigh. but im safe and sound except for some abrasion on my left knee.

Thou' shalt be stopping here for now.
Thou' shalt promise to update my blog regularly (tho i dont even know if i got reader. lols)

Thats all for now.

KS.

23-12-2008

2008-12-23T23:16:00.002+08:00

SUP PEEPS! I'm getting plain lazy to update my blog daily =D
Its kinda rotting.
Lets me just update about my life.

Common Test ended upon my last post.
Don't think it would be fantastic,
But I just hope that i won't fail.
Holiday came soon, and right now right here,
its the middle of the the holiday already.

How time flies.
Following which, I just did my medical checkup at CMPB last monday.
Lastest height measurement, 169 weighing only 50.8.
Was better then marcus, where he stand at 174 but only 50.2 (thats underweight)
Medical checkup was so argh.

While waiting for the registration to be process.
I kinda got an urge to go to the washroom.
Totally forgetting that there's a urine test coming up.
Just as i emptied my bladder, I was asked to urinate in this small cup.
and dip a stick in it.

And i only got like DROPS.
YES DROPS of urine...=/
and my dear nephew didnt save me.
Wanted to cheat by using his urine.
That faggot pour away right after i asked.

blood test was crap.
I was poked in my right arm. With little blood coming out.
Thus i was poked AGAIN on my left.
ZZZ...Feeling so special that those guy taking blood test got 1 arm poke.
and I got both my arms poked.

Following by sight and hearing blah blah blah.
shall not elaborate on this.

KS

09-12-08

2008-12-09T21:38:00.002+08:00

Birthday started off with a morning MPI revision.
Followed by lunch in canteen 1.
Went off for self studies.

Ending with me returning marcus' lecture notes at his place.
which i took by accident.

Dinner with Jason in BPP.
So nice of him to come 'specially' to pei me for dinner.

Home by 7.30p.m.

What a way of celebration.
Why should someone be happy about birthday. =o=
Been 2 times since this kinda celebration happened.

Deep in the bottom of my heart.
I really wanna celebrate.
But, i aint enjoying the day.
So if theres really a celebration going on.
I wont be enjoying it either.

Having receive birthday wish from some of you.
But all I want, is a wish from you.
YES YOU! 1 wish from you would meant more than what others wishes me.

Argh.

KS

p.s thanks to all who wishes me.

esp. kai, sandy, yao jie, daniel, jia jie, jason and lydia for the 12am wishes.

and thanks li jun for calling me at 12am to borrow money =.=

09-12-08

2008-12-09T00:36:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday to me?
Not too happy tho.

Kinda felt how marcus felt during his bday.
Shall update more later.

Thank to those who wishes me.
Appreciated.

KS

07-12-08

2008-12-07T16:32:00.001+08:00

Post dedicated to Marcus Peh Jun Long

HAPPY BELATED BDAY POST ON 06 12 2008!!!

FINALLY 18 =x

ks

my bday in 2 more days..=/

5-12-2008

2008-12-05T09:42:00.002+08:00

Yes, this post is specially dedicated to the taxi drivers out there.
FUCK YOU! DON'T EVER FUCKING STAY IN THE YELLOW BOX WHEN TURNING OUT.

Just got into an accident.
No injury on me except for a sprain right ankle.
Footrest bent. Mirror got scratched, Ferring scratched

Argh pain pain pain!

ks

4-12-2008

2008-12-04T23:00:00.005+08:00

Boring class today. Woke up at 8am to prepare for school.
Reach in time for MPI lecture.

MPI was boring, followed by DCNT lecturer.
LOLS, my lecturer watches porn on the schools' laptop.
LMAO, while teaching halfway, a porn suddenly pop up

Whole class burst into laughter.
Even the lecturer himself was shocked.
LAWLS

After which, went home put my things down.
Cause im meeting another lecturer for consultation.
CT coming yea!

Rain while im back home.
Phew lucky im back home early. x=

Took a bus back to NP.
You know, Its kinda nice to be taking a bus once in a while.
After you got your license. =/
Kinda relaxing. sit there;
Forget about the blind spot checking.
The looking out for traffic police and shyt.

6 more days to CT and 5 more days to my BIG BIG DAY!
1 more day to marcus's bday too.

Oh yea, My interview with RASF was a success.
After Dec 22 medical checkup.
I would sign on =/

Don't know if i made a wrong choice in my life this time.
Don't know if i can maintain a constant GPA of 2
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

KS

01-12-2008

2008-12-01T14:31:00.002+08:00

Yo peeps, let this post be a wall of words again.
How time flies.
Its already the last month of the year.
In a blink of an eye, I'm going 19 in 8 days time.

2008 is gonna go in another 30 days.
By then we would be welcoming 2009.
Seriously, has anyone of you guys,
Look back in your own life before you retire for the day.
Just sit upon your bed.
Think of the people you met along the way of life.
Things that happen. Things that you accomplished.
Friends you know from then till now.

Just as i notice, As my age goes up,
My bday celebration mood dies down.
16yo bday, went on tonning with friends.
17yo went drinking with cousins.

AND GOD DAMN 18 I GOTTA STAY AT HOME TO MUG FOR COMMON TEST!!
Here i am, 19 soon, i gotta study for the common CT.
IDK whats wrong with me.
Seems to get really pessimistic with life's.

Why should people celebrate bday?
Is it really a joy to be born into this world?
I mean, look at others in the world.

Yes we should be really glad that we're born in Singapore.
Look at the third world countries.
We shouldn't really take things for granted.
Living in Singapore is just real tiring.

Taxes, work, fines etc etc...
Humans are born to this world to deal with troubles.
Why not just leave me alone.
Just let me be some nobody.
Who doesnt have to care about everything.

I noticed something last evening.
I'm not sicked of working.
Rather, I'm sick of the people there.
I worked 8 days a month,
YOU FREAKING PUT ME IN A FREAKING BUSY COUNTER WITH NO SALES...
FOR 4 FREAKING DAYS....

Never mind that, however you guys wish to place me doesn't matter now.
Its just a matter of time.
Honestly, I really wanted to help you guys work pass the CNY season.
But back in my mind, I'm just in a dilemma.

YaLan auntie finishes her last day of work last night.
An auntie I'm really fond of while working in Miss Tan dept.
Misses her as she walked out of NTUC door.
At the same time, I'm just feeling happy for her.

At least she knows what she wanted with her life.
I'm not sure what should i do.
Unsure about my future. unsure about my career.
Taking things as it comes along the way.

Shall stop here since im having my programming class as i blog now..
back to study, CT in another 9 days =/

KS

28-11-2008

2008-11-28T17:34:00.002+08:00

A whooping 18 days w/o post.
My blog is dying, covered with maggots.

Let me recall, Been busy fixing up my bike.
Went into JB install some LED lights.
Changing the engine parts.
And making my top speed higher.

Schools' been neglected and my CT is coming in 12 days
damn. Can i make it?

Bdays coming too, but till now i got no planning.
aww...

Went for RSAF interview ytd.
"Tell me, Why shld i employ you?"

how would you answer this if you were me?

Separation for us too yea..
But i guess its better then bitter ending.
At least we're still in contact.
Not as much as b4 tho.
oh well...

I guess thats that.
Photos of my bike will be posted here soon...

STAY TUNED!

ks

10-11-2008

2008-11-10T23:35:00.004+08:00

Wee im here to post again.
Feeling all better today.
Except for the mild cough.

Miss MPI lesson again this morning.
DAMNIT, didnt i promised to study hard this sem.
keep overslping and missing my lesson.
I need MOLTIVATION!
yes, moltivation.

Chiong hard for my car prac.
Booked my TP so damn long ago, yet hasnt attended any lesson.
Finally attended my 3rd lesson for prac 1
and im at stage 1.08 le...
So happy.

For the nxt 3 days, i fully booked my day for car prac
JY, i gotta make it by jan 15 to complete everything!

KS

7-11-2008

2008-11-08T01:16:00.002+08:00

Man, this month damn suay sio.
Kena backstab, ah long tio case, hui hui pass away, etc etc
NOW WORSE!

Just received a parking fine of 8 dollars.
Just for parking without displaying a coupon.
WHO THE HELL INVENTED COUPON FOR CARPARKS.
THAT IDIOT SHLD JUS DIE!

Not to mention i hasnt clear the 200 bucks fine
sian, where do find so much money to pay off all this.

KS is sick...down with flu, headache and bad bad cough.
argh.

shldnt post much im off to bed..

bye peeps

KS

3-11-08

2008-11-03T19:42:00.002+08:00

Yes, Im back to post.
Was so fed up at work yesterday.
That hypocrite has once again,
stab me in the back. (ever since u promoted)

Big deal? Stab me all you can; all you want.
why? CAUSE I DONT GIVE A DAMN ABOUT THIS JOB NO MORE!
YES I CHANGE
BUT IS IT ONLY ME?
NO!

people around me changes too..like you and him and everyone else.
who the hell stay constant all the times.
Yes i admit, even i myself noticed my change in my thinking.
My atttitude to life.
my way of living.
But what about you.
can you touch your heart and asked yourself?

I cant be bothered about anything anymore.
Mess with me?...ima mess you up together with me.
Push me to the edge and ima grab you and jump down together.
try me if you dare...

Next to 'change', 'decision making'.
I've made up my mind.
Its time to bid goodbye to NTUC.
I'm sick of the politic-filled worked environment.
yes I'm aware, all other work places are political.
At the VERY LEAST, leave ME out of it.

I understand that my blog might have fairprice BPJ staff viewing.
THEN READ THIS CAREFULLY,
Regardless whether I'm signing on to the airforce, or not.

I

Q
U
I
T
!

YES I QUIT!
Screw this man. meagre pay with tons of crap regulation.
I'm afraid i'm not up for it.
And back in my mind, I know jolly well
If i were to leave now, i bet most will be neutral.
and that exceptional some will be pretty glad.

"Yes! this fag is finally gone"
"HAH...knew he cant last long"

Well, Just f.y.i , i took 2 pieces of resignation forms yesterday.
No I didn't psycho him.
He ASKED me to get a piece for him after seeing the form on my hand.

To be able to sign on the airforce dont really matter now.
I'm already planning on the date to submit the forms.
I'm not disclosing the dates here.

What do I work as after this?
Well, I can always be an "ah sia kia".
Everyday sit at home watch anime.
All I gotta do is to get my money from my mum again...

Money comes in, enjoying my life every now and then.
I'm tired, and i need a really good and long rest...

KS

28-10-08

2008-10-28T08:51:00.006+08:00

Damn, early morning in NP library.
Forgot that class this morning is cancelled.
That fudge head lecturer din even send an email notification.

screw him up.
Lets see what can i post.
Worked some bloody "MY" shift yesterday,
6.6k sales for me and 9k sales for Marcus?..

That's the difference in "busy-ness" of Lv 1 and Lv 2 of NTUC..
lols, but we managed to hit a balance report at least.
So sian nowadays, Just thinking about standing at the counter.
Looking at the faces of disgruntled customers really turned me off.

Ending todays class at 5pm and earlier cuz of PDPr.
MOST probably ending early.

I think i've made up my mind.
Thought it's not a 100% decision
I've decided to sign on to RSAF.
5 years, after i finish serving that bond,
Im only 26. Anyway, to be able to live till that age is good enough.

I don't even plan to live so long. =/
Don't know about peh.
For him, his course in NP is aerospace technology.
After he grad, he can easily land a job in the aeronautic company,
which pay higher then 1.8k =/

Whats more, that "papa-boy" should be signing up.
Since his dad is so enthu to sign him up.
And that NO mindset kid most likely gonna go with it..lols

Next to come, are you really that busy?
or i just made it into your "irritating person" list, and thus getting ignored.
Replies from you wasnt even enough to ease the 思念.
I guess that's that. Just wanna let you know,
i miss you..

GOOD LUCK TO ALL THE O's CANDIDATE...
O'S CAME FAST AND ITS ENDING SOON...
JYJY ALL MY O's FRIENDS!!!

KS

23-10-08

2008-10-23T15:55:00.003+08:00

_|_ back to u marcus peh...specially post here instead of my tagbox..feeling proud?

Yay...class ended at 11am today, Went to Ba Wang with dom and his CCK group for lunch.
Pretty cool, know afew more new frens..
Basically rotting at home.
Hmm, I think im going to sign on to RSAF.

Thats if i pass their requirement of getting a GPA of 2.3.
Passing their medical checkup, so on.
Friday came by again,Means that sat have to work.. argh..

sians...

ks

22-10-08

2008-10-22T23:05:00.005+08:00

Back to post peeps.
Firstly, a happy belated bday to Anthony Peh Young Siang~
Sweet 16 tho i dunno why,
you and ur bro dont like to celebrate bday...

Secondly, Keep getting spammed by some Joint-SAF poly scheme.
It really tempt me to sign on to the RSAF.
I can really sit back at home if i were to sign on.
No more NTUC, no more F***FACE customer.
but at the same time, im feeling really unsure.
Im capable of give people security,
but when it comes to myself, i always feel so insecure.
Was the same feeling when me and marcus joined little "business" venture.
Turns out my gut feeling was right...
Wasnt as nice and easy as it seems to be.

Did some minor calculation, if i were to be chosen.
Signed on, i would have received back roughly 12k from the scheme.
10k to last me for 1 year, i believe its enough...
Shld i or not?...not only me, marcus did revealed that his keen too...
Guess we just got tired of working.
Asked him what really tempted him to sign on.
His reply was.....
"can quit NTUC everyday stay at home liao" =/

stay at home for me?
nah...i still got some promises to fulfill...
Made some promises to some frens and relative.
I would visit them once i got my bike license,
Till now i hasnt fulfill it.

Lastly, Good luck to all the O level takers.
Kai meng and his frens (Zss 5N classes)
Jason
matthew aka OMO
HongDou
covin
and many more la...sry if i cant recall...

KS.
(we drifted quite a bit didnt we? cant you feel it?)

16-10-08

2008-10-16T21:04:00.002+08:00

$200 bucks for a stick or cigarette butt.
YES A FREAKING 200 BUCKS...
GOT FINED BY NEA FOR THROWING A CIGARETTE BUTT ON THE FLOOR.
RIGHT OUTSIDE PLAZA.

DAMNIT.

I swear,
THIS IS THE FREAKING LAST PACK IM FINISHING.
NO MORE SMOKING!
THINK I CANT DO IT?
IM GONNA PROVE YOU WRONG!

zzz, so damn pissed...
just as i'm broke to do anything else, i got fined.
smoking for 6 years, never ever got caught when underage.
now that im 18.
im being fined...damnit ._.

thinking back, i should have geh siao.
since its raining, and they cant find evidence anyway...zzz
seriously im so damn stupid..

QUIT SMOKING! pls call 1800-438-2000..
Nah im not gonna call that dumb helpline.
I've did it once,
and im gonna do it again...

KS

14-10-08

2008-10-14T12:24:00.002+08:00

Hi Peeps. Back to post.
I know, Its rotting.
Dont know what to post anyway.

Everything seems so sian,
blogging in NP library now.
Riding to school nowadays.
Praying hard wont rain everyday.

Just finish lunch.
Didnt eat much tho,
3 half-boiled eggs with 1 lo mai kai and 1 cup of coffee.
No mood to eat anyway,
despite my normal huge appeitite.

Weight drop down AGAIN...from 54 now left 52. damnit ._.
What else to post...

KS.

29-09-08

2008-09-29T02:29:00.000+08:00

Late post, i know...
Woke up yesterday at 7am thx to matt's wake up call.
Prepared myself and rush off to BBDC.
From 8 am at there rot till 10am,
TPPT finally starts.

I was tag number 66 while matt was 84.
Know another friend there called Johnathon..
Or w/e the spelling =/, his 51
slowly, 10 by 10 were called out.

Leaving the waiting room to take the TPPT.
Seriously wasnt feeling confident, nor in the mood.
When its my turn, All i can think of..
Its to get it done and over with..
Circuit was totally crap.. Made quite a few mistake

What really made me worried was the right turn after lane change..
THAT FUCKING CAR was really FUCKING SLOW...
and i kinda of pissed and jus turn infront of it...
Thought I'm bound to get a "fail to give way to vechicle with the right of way"
Phew, think the tester din notice, if not its an immediate failure mistake.
Next to come, almost fell off the "plank"..
pulled in the bike in time and i made it.
The rest of the courses were easy shit...

On road was even better, bigger area; lesser tester;
lesser chance to get points..
By the time i noticed, im already at BBDC gate
a few more secs and the entire test would be done...

After which, went to smoking corner, took a puff
and went back to the Level 3 classroom.
STAYING IN THAT CLASSROOM WAS HELL!!!
9 tester, came in 1 by 1...reading out the tag numbers of those who fail...
It was nerve breaking!
When my tester came in, i cant feel my hands no more.
It has gotten numb and pale,
first number my group's tester read out..
"Number 67!"
I was like WOO~~~ I PASS!...
Let out a sigh of relief.. "YES!..>WOO~"
think its too loud and everyone was like laughing at me ._.

But then, he read out, "tag number 64"..
Thoughts just came to me, isnt the failure tag number to be in sequence?
Fear strikes me AGAIN..damn

But phew, 64 was the last failure.
Matt and Johnathon made it too...
Yesterday was i think a record high passing rate.
Out of 90, 66 passed, which is approx a 74.333% passing rate
wee...

yea ok i know, LONG LONG post
let me cut the story,
After i made my QDL, Ivan and Johan accompanied me to my bike shop
Rain halfway and 3 of us were drench..
Took my bike home from "PIE"
It was really frightening, thx to Ivan and Johan for guiding and protecting me.
From all the cars on PIE and bring me back home to my Kampong...LOLS

Did quite a lot of rounding with Ivan and Johan,
Nights came and ShunLong and JiaJie called,
Another rounding session to KJE and thx to them protecting me in KJE too...
I was the middle bike while JJ was infront and long behind...

Reach home around 11 and i went rounding by myself to NP..
NanKeng called me asking me to wait for him to come home,
He wanna see my bike..After 30 min, received another call from him.
asking me to go pillion him back from bukit timah,
Went off again, looks like his bike is screwed..lols

and thats all...=)

Thx to all the peeps and gave me their support during my TP.

KS

26-09-08

2008-09-26T23:30:00.002+08:00

Yea i know, double post.
Feel like writing this down.
been weeks.

You wasnt there for me at my utmost low period.
Feeling so insecure.
I know we made a pact.
After oct, but cant help it yea?

Afew days back after the quarrel with my mum.
I noticed how sad my circles of frens are..
Notice how i got no one to turn to..

No one for me to pour out to
No one to share my woe
Not even you were by me.
Didnt wanna turn to XB and gang...

Sent you an sms.
You didnt reply me...
Only sandy did, but upon hearing her side of probs.
Didnt wanna add on to hers,
sat down quietly by the void deck 2 street away.
Tears just flow down.

Idk why, Thoughts just keep flooding into my head.
First time ever, i finish off 2 packs of cigerette by myself,
I asked myself to stop smoking,
For the sake of myself,
For the sake of you.
Guessed im just too naive...

Even for now the first person i wanna go meet after my TP
Its you.
Guess its not fated to.
Maybe I really should find a soulmate.
Thought i finally found a group,
A guai kia group that can hang out with.
I was wrong.

I didnt fit in as much.
Just seems like im so damn redundant.
My presence wouldnt have made a difference.
I guess life just go on,

Cant wait for the day i pass TP,
at least i know,
When i feel low,
i can ride off to a beach.

The other day in poly chalet,
It really feels good, first time ever,
staring off the sea.
passing time.
how i wish time just stop there,
and let me be there for good...

26-09-08

2008-09-26T23:21:00.002+08:00

Worked some bloody shift today at 11am.
woke up at 12, slowly take my own sweet time.
Really got tired.
11-3 scan scan scan.
fucking ha moi keep pushing customer to me.
Then she go slack herself.

Freaking fed up of that.
Keep closing my counter do useless shit.
Push basket, put things back to shelf.

Saw sandy and vincent after my lunch.
They bought half a dozen of birdnest.=/

After that change over to counter 11
from 5-7, basically i got no sales.
Went over to counter 10 to talk to Lee Cheng auntie.

6pm change money till 645.
Go back my counter pack up go home.
so damn sian nowadays.

2 more days to TP...
Hope i can make it...
I hope to see u on monday, regardless whether i pass or fail...=)

KS

24-09-08

2008-09-24T23:18:00.002+08:00

Seriously no mood, just quarreled with my mum yesterday.
Went to work in a totally SIAN DIAO mood.
Request to change to level 2.

Lucky today sandy at level 2.
Entertain me throughout.
Play bingo and tic tac toe at counters' =x

Didnt wanna stay at home now.
This home of mine got no warmth.
YES TOTALLY NO WARMTH.
walking home is such a dread.

Wanted to join XB fo prawning.
They left w/o me...
What frens they are..

Dunno what to say.
My view on life just hit another LOW.
Living is such a tiring chore.

Wanted to find ppl to slack with me tomorrow.
Too bad none are free.

Sigh, guess i better pass my license,
Go rounding better.

KS.

21-09-08

2008-09-22T01:45:00.003+08:00

Argh, back home at 1am finally.

Work today was alright, went late as usual
kinda hate 'MY' shift now.
so damn tiring.

Balanced again.
Today was fun la
Marcus behind me and we basically crap alot.

I just know that guy is such a greedy man.
He will know what i mean.

While walking home after work
Saw xiaobai, weijie, CK sim and CHOI!
slack with them, then go 163 for dinner.
then move out to another location to slack

As we walk, topic of our friendship came up.
Although i'm not as bonded as they are,
I notice i know XB for a good 7 years liao.

Thoughts of the old times just pop up.
And we started to talk on how we got to know each other

How time flies eh?
Another good example would be,
JiaWang's bro, JiaXing,
Last time primary 1 i still bully him,
Now that kid in same poly as me and Wang liao..

Very soon, we would graduate from NP,
Enlisting to NS, and i really foresee,
Marcus dunno what to do, anyone wanna bet?
Oh ya, by that time, BX shld oso be in NS with us..

Guess thats it..

KS

20/09/2008

2008-09-20T22:45:00.002+08:00

HI PEEPS! Back to post...

Got my result back recently, aint really fantastic.
GPA of 1.92 only.
NTUC NP student din fair well either.
Kok Wee @ 2.4, marcus at 2.67...

Working as usual today, 'MY' shift.
Short of 5 cent and i gladly donate in 5 cent to make it balance.
Went to RC @ BBDC on friday morning.
Its a TOTAL WASTE of my money.

TP date pressing in.
Praying hard so that i pass at first attempt.
NSR150 awaiting for me,
and prolly a new job.

Thou' shalt promised to study hard for the upcoming sems!
At least a GPA of 2.5!
GOGOGO KS!

BTW, congrats to KaiL for new shop and being a LAO ban niang..=x

KS, the EMO-GO-LUCKY guy

16-09-08

2008-09-16T22:33:00.002+08:00

My mind is feeling so confused, so stress...I dont wanna lose you.

Adding to the stress, Just bought my NSR 150, and i think i kinda too kan jiong to get a bike. Now im feeling super stress about it.

2.5k full payment, and im super worried that its a problematic bike...

Dunno what to post, dunno what to do. Others are super happy to get a new bike, why am i so emo.

KS

13-09-2008

2008-09-13T23:25:00.003+08:00

I don't know what else to blog no more, if blogging is all about ones' life,
i notice i got "no life"...

Its always complain and complain about work in here, and me passing bike prac
and more complains about ppl in ntuc.

Wanted to post somethings regarding NTUC way of scheduling cashier.
But after some thoughts, It might just end up in a wall of words full of complain.

Tomorrow is Poly's classmate 1st chalet ever, im not gonna miss out.
But NTUC keep screwing things up despite me giving notice like 2 weeks b4 hand..

Nevertheless, Im NOT gonna move. Its either the accommodate me or lose me for tomorrow shift and thats it.

Afterall it ain't my fault.

KS.

10-09-2008

2008-09-10T22:57:00.000+08:00

KS is sick...zzz down with block nose on the left nostril and running nose on the right nostril...fever came up at work today and coughing really bad...

i think jason pass me his chronic cough...=x lols

gonna eat med and go to bed liao..night peeps

KS

09-09-08

2008-09-09T22:35:00.003+08:00

Ahh~...alot of days didnt blog le. Let me update about this few days event. Didnt blog ytd even tho i was home early cuz i'm really pissed about a certain chief cashier..didnt wanna go into detail in this.

This morning woke up at 9.30am, rushing to prac 8.01, at 950..overslp again...
reach there on time..but fail.. 24 points again then chiong for session 4 de 8.01.

In between the time, i rush home, brought my mum to lot 1 to sign for a new line.
I got a new phone!!!
A SE W980!!! no pics of it ar..too lazy to take

then rush back to BBDC to take 8.01 AGAIN. Was really scared la.
Got this indian guy fail 9th time taking prac with me la..
I'm so scared that i'll follow his footstep sia.
Thx god, 16 points with no immediate failure.

Finally i can take a break and wait for TP on sept 29th

As for now, im gonna prepare songs into my new hp...

bye peeps

KS.

05-09-2008

2008-09-05T19:15:00.000+08:00

"Try to rest more, looks like a fatigue case to me"
"I'll give you some medication to relax your muscle and prevent nausea"
"Go home rest more"

Thats what my family doctor told me.
Crap, at the age of 19 im already showing signs of fatigue.

Went to work at 2pm feeling very dizzy and both my hand and feet keep getting this numb feeling. Brush it off thinking its just bad blood circulation. Till about 3.30pm,really bad headache kicked in and i start to feel nausea. NO appetite for dinner and i merely took a cup of instant noodle.

After the meal, i practically vomit everything out again, wasting my 1.60 for the cup noodle. Went into chief cashier room ah ngoh i wanna go home >.<

Walked over to "wang jiao" bought a cup of hot milo and a waffle from "Swee Heng" and walked home. Rest for a while and went to see doctor after the numbness wouldnt go away.

Reach home at 7pm, i think im going to slp...nights peep

KS

03-09-08

2008-09-03T00:11:00.000+08:00

What rotten bored day...LOL, went over to jason's place slack at 12pm all the way till 3pm, after which we went to CWP for "breakfast" at pizza hut. Poor him, wallet left 19 bucks still pizza hut LOL. Gary joined in after.

Look at the mess in jason room la..omfg

AND HIS FLOOR IS FULL OF USED HANDKERCHIEF!

After meal, did some shopping for long sleeves for my bike prac, bought 2 long sleeves xD..and a new wallet. simply cant control my spending when it comes to shopping..lol

My new wallet

Jason went home to change for his badminton appointment. Accompanied him to Lot 1 to meet his friend but we late and the game was cancelled..lols...another walk walk session and i ended up buying another 2 shirt in bossini..

Reached home at 8, changed out and went to meet LJ, XB and daniel go bike prac, OMFG IM TELLING YOU GUYS, I MIGHT BE ABLE TO GET MY LICENSE b4 poly reopen xD. Just PASS my prac 6.01 and not too happy about it. I DIDNT GET TO SPEED COZ THE DUMB RIDER INFRONT OF ME WAS RIDING LIKE 40KM/H AND HE IS SO DAMN FAR FROM THE FIRST INSTRUCTOR...and i cant overtake him coz we're suppose to stay in staggered formation..

Tired now, gonna slp..night guys

KS

02-09-08

2008-09-02T23:25:00.003+08:00

Finally, the picture says it all

Finally, gotten my PDL and im 3 prac mroe to my TP, booked my TP on the 06-10-2008.
That means I still got 1 more month to complete everything.

Now that RTT is over, i can finally take a lil break..
Tomorrow 10pm, prac 6.01 ROAD SUBJECT. hope i pass...

Gotta bank in this

surname and NRIC removed due to jason the peeping tom...

1-9-08

2008-09-01T12:40:00.001+08:00

Disorder	Your Score
Major Depression:	High
Dysthymia:	Slight-Moderate
Bipolar Disorder:	Slight
Cyclothymia:	High-Moderate
Seasonal Affective Disorder:	Very High
Postpartum Depression:	N/A
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31-08-08

2008-08-31T22:35:00.002+08:00

Lunar Seventh month finally over, what a relief. No more constant nagging from my mum to rush me home and constant phone calls to irritate me when im playing mahjong.

Met Gary for lunch this afternoon. After which I left for work and he left to CCK to study with his friends. Work is so so so so so tiring, made up my mind to change my job to a tuition teacher. Today was kinda weird, I was place in counter 3 ( Was marcus counter yesterday), and him place at counter 12 (my counter yesterday). As stated from previous post, Marcus keyed in a record high of 9k odds yesterday and i key in 6k odds. Today wasnt better, marcus got 10k whereas i got 9k. Looks like my passion to chiong sale died off pretty quickly. All the aunties there seems curious where the "WANT-SUPER-HIGH-SALE" me went to, its pretty obvious i wasnt as hardworking as before anymore..comparing marcus and me our sale for the 2 days, its pretty obvious im slow in clearing queue given the same counter vice versa.

Now that im home, i didnt know what to do. LJ and gang in batok after which they heading to booze again.

Think I head for bed early tonight, there is like 2 test awaiting for me tomorrrow, FTT and RTT..final theory test and riding theory test..

ALL THE BEST

KS.

31-08-08

2008-08-30T11:09:00.000+08:00

Back to blog. 4 days didn't blog due to work and late night mahjong session. Played with xiaobai, nan keng and LJ so long, FIRST TIME EVER im the sole winner of the game. LOLs

Forget that. hmm, Met Jason for lunch yesterday at 12 at LJS. Pretty fun and cause I gotta work, he accompany home to change. And on our way back, I did something to him =x . Now he wants revenge! LOLS!!!

Work wise, As usual, no mood to work fast. Total sale for the night was 6.9k whereas marcus hit 9.2k. However which, I clear more customer than him. But thats not important anymore. Im getting so sick of working in NTUC. While daydreaming at level 2 yesterday, thoughts of changing job to a tuition teacher keep hitting me. At least i can tutor up to sec 3 level. Plus im good im humanities, And in the market there aint many humanities tuition teachers around, thus making me extra valuable and PAY IS HIGHER as a tuition teacher than as a cashier. Time wise also much more flexible.

LOOKING FOR SEC 3 AND BELOW STUDENTS FOR TUITION. MATHS AND SOCIAL STUDIES AND GEOGRAPHY.

Another balancing day in ntuc.

ks

27-08-08

2008-08-27T19:30:00.009+08:00

Yawn, woke up at 11.30 am. Kinda forgotten my lunch appointment with my ah yee. LOL, we're supposed to meet at 11am, guess I just did it again. =x After washing up kinda late already. We were planning to go for a sushi buffet but by the time i got ready, was kinda late already.

What to do when its my fault for not waking up? Can't be picky so we head out to Cafe Cartel at BPP for lunch. Noticed my blog always walls of words. Heres some pic

My Sorloin Steak

Ah yee's pork chop

Im telling you, Cartel is good in cooking pork, but their steak totally sucks. ZZZ Its SO SO hard even when I ordered medium rare. Its so crap and their serving is SO small.

On the other hand, their pork chop was really well done. I must say, Its so tender and crispy on the outside. Going with their BBQ sauce wasnt too heavy. After the meal, ah yee left for work and im left wandering around plaza. Just as I wanted to head home, Rain came pouring down.

My last resort to avoid rain and go some place to slack other than plaza. Went to marcus's place.

Called YEOZ LIANG, he wanted to buy Chromes and I waited for him till he's release from class. He bought a really ghey blue which i thought was pretty erm...not appealing. Nowadays kids are all so damn rich. Recalling back when I'm in sec 4, I din even have a branded items on me, and yeo liang got himself a chromes bag at 16 at the price of $219!!! That rich kid...zzz

Now having my dinner while typing. After dinner going meet LLJ and XB slack.. but before i go, share with my reader somemore pics =D

Act cool in kopitiam LOLS

cut my toe.

26-08-08

2008-08-26T23:07:00.002+08:00

Disclaimer: Its gonna be a essay-like post again, DO NOT read on if you are not gonna sleep so soon. This post act as a sedative to numb all your 5 senses.

ZOMG!, another long day, Went to mahjong with LJ, XB and NK last night, 16 rounds lose 1 dollars..zzz after that go coffeeshop slack saw weihao, went to mahjong with them again. 16 rounds lose 80 cents. Note that we playing 20 cent 40 cent, zzz. Got bike prac 5.02 this morning and I almost cant wake up.

Thx to XB call, i managed to wake up. Wash up and took a cab down to BBDC. Was late for like 10 min, and there is this really really F* up instructor saying late comers are not allowed to take the lesson. Cmon dude, I cant remember the exact number of late comers joining my prac while I was learning. Anyway, that "GU TIAN LE"(Cai ZhiFei is his name) look alike guy took my 5.02.

Didn't really have a good impression on him since he always give those super "yaya" face. But in fact, his quite nice. EXCEPT, he got short tongue. =X. Put on my riding gear and he told me to warm up 2 rounds on the test route, then head back to the waiting area. It was then, I noticed that i'm not weak in pylon and plank, but turning and E brake. Best in "figure 8" and "crank" course. I exited crank at 3 seconds today. Pretty impressive eh. Then comes the test, I was really nervous. Noticed my leg keep shivering. DUHZ! Took a deep breathe and close my eye. I tell myself.

"KS, you have been screwing up things recently, you better not screw this up"

Start of the test was crap, I was the first bike and they always say if the 1st bike, the rider suck, all the people behind will follow suit and fail or pass together. It was hell, whats worse is, I wasn't paying attention to him and the waiting area. Prac go on and on. The only crap I'm afraid is right leg coming down at E brake. surprisingly, it didn't drop and i did all the safety procedure properly. Phew

Passed 5.02 with 12 points and NO IMMEDIATE FAILURE!

Theres like 8 points unnecessary. 4 points for not checking blind spot after exiting "S course", and 4 points for delay moving off. That delay moving off was crap. The car didn't signal his intention to do a left turn into the way I'm going in, So i presume his going straight. Then suddenly he signal like 1 second before the turn. JUST SO NICE! GU TIAN LE TURN HIS HEAD. Stupid car.

Prac ends early, waited for xiao bai (yao huang) at his debrief for prac 1.01, and to my dismay, he failed the most basic prac..LOLS. After that we went to LJS for breakfast and I head home to change after the filling meal.

It is so so tiring to sleep at 5am, woke up at 9am and start work at 2pm..zzz. Work is shyt today, I feel so emo today at work, I guess fatigue is catching up to me. Its already almost 1 year and 9 months working in NTUC. To coordinate work and school with no play and no LIFE! The next thing i wanna say, might be offensive but still, THIS IS MY BLOG. I POST WHAT I THINK. ITS MY THOUGHT!

I SO FUCKING HATE CANTONESE AUNTIE LA... I noticed 75 percent of the Cantonese auntie, Don't give a heck about what you say. This is what happen.

Theres is 2 cantonese auntie came over to my counter to pay. I already recognized them for they make so much noise they last time they came to my counter to pay making fuss over a few cents of error which is caused by their ignorance to read the receipt properly. Today was NO exception. Lets call them Auntie X and Auntie Y. Auntie Y bought 2 packets of fairprice-branded
tofu. A packet of blue and a packet of red which cost $1.40 each. After I cleared her off my queue, she came back with the receipt saying the 2 tofu got offer, $1.25 for 2 why I charge her $1.40 each. Just then, Auntie X KPO chup in and both of them starts to converse in canto which I don't understand a shyt on what they were talking about. Then auntie Y turn over.

"Ah di, how come price wrong"
"Auntie, the items only same type then got offer, you took 2 different type"
"BUT SAME WHAT, YOU SEE ALL FAIR PRICE TOFU."

Just then, the stupid Auntie X come and chup in again. I only understand this sentence of canto.

"hai ye hai ye, low fairprice gai tofu ye"
"fairprice gai tofu no offer?"
auntie Y goes on and both of them start their conversation which I dont understand again. They started their mini argument with me saying that its same fairprice tofu why cannot. IM SO SO SO SO SO SO SOOOOOOOOOOO TEMPTED TO RETALIATE THEM.

"NTUC YOUR FATHER OPEN ONE IS IT, LET YOU HAPPILY MIXED SI BO". But this sentence never came out. My next customer tried to explain to them in canto and again, they start to say the "same fairprice tofu" crap. I told the customer is ok, This 2 are regular. They never come came w/o making a fuss out of the smallest fault they can find. I press for TL to come, and practically treat them as invisible as the auntie Y keep bombasts me the same old question. "HOW COME SAME FAIRPRICE TOFU NO OFFER." 02 aka Miss Lim came over and settle them.

But thats not the worse for today. UNCLE A and AUNTIE B!

Uncle A bought some 10 odd dollars items from my counter, and because its Old Folks day every tuesday, all Senior citizen are entitled a 2 percent, or is it 4 percent. Cant remember, but they 're entitled to have discount. Uncle A took out his yellow colour member card and pass to me. Given my working behavior, I wont even know who is queuing infront of me even if Felicia Chin infront of me. Needless to say some stupid uncle. I saw the card and swipe him the members and clear him. He didn't leave. I looked up and he asked.

"Why you never minus the LAO LANG discount"

I told him, "You never let me see your IC or EZLINK, HOW I KNOW?!"

"But i got give you my member card leh"

HELLO UNCLE, U GO HOME, WEAR YOUR SPECS AND LOOK AT YOUR MEMBER CARD CAREFULLY. ON WHICH SIDE OF THE CARD DOES IT STATES YOUR D.O.B.

HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW YOUR ONE OF THE VERY FEW OLD F* PEOPLE WHO ONLY COME OUT TO SHOP ON TUES CUZ OF THE DISCOUNT...

Just then, kpo auntie strikes!

"ah di, You look at the face also know we LAO LANG liao"

"auntie, I look at your face i thought you from china leh. The LAO LANG discount only for SINGAPOREAN!" ( thats what i wanted to say but, i got excellence service alright, plus i wasnt really feeling good today, No spare energy entertain them")

Today work really happening. But this is the main 2 things that got me real fed up with today. The rest of the fish up events lets not elaborate on. If not this post can go on and on.

Yet another day of balance account. You guys wanna know how low and tired im feeling today?

Usually I would have close to or higher sales then marcus. But today, i got like only 6.8k working whole day at level 1 and marcus only joined level 1 at 5pm. Before that he was at level 2 slacking, he got like 8.8k. This is how slow i am today.

I don't know whether is it fatigue or age catching up. For now what I know is i lost interest to do EVERYTHING, except to go for a steamboat meal. Let me just hang on to work, till the day when i really got phobia of walking to NTUC.

I guess thats all for today post. =D

Before I sign off, let me wish all my O level taking frenz and relative and N level taking frenz and relative GL!

Dedicated mostly to:
kai meng
jason
Matthew(omo)
Red Bean (hong wei)

KS

24-08-2008

2008-08-25T00:09:00.002+08:00

OMG...having a blog is such a tiring thing, the thoughts of switching on my computer and logging in to blog just doesnt turn me on. Lets see, i notice my blog entries are really a wall of words, So Ima try to keep this short like me SHORTY!

Ok update on school, Exams are finally over, Im not really optimistic about the oncoming result, i know in my mind, i wasnt well-prepared. If i am gonna retake my modules and repeating my sems, most likely i wont be entering NS the same time as my friends in poly and marcus and my JC cousin. But oh well...

Hasnt taken my bike 5.02 after the 1st attempt, coming tuesday my 2nd attempt, only thing im afraid is E brake and plank, thats my weakest. Matt just gave me some advice, Blind spot, check like its free, dont feel shy. Hell_Fire (a guy i got to know from CO) says junction checking, check like the road belongs to your dad. LLJ says BIG ACTION!..MOVE UR HEAD!!! so instructor can see. Leave it all to fate, i got till sept 1st to pass 5.02 so can relax abit.

Work wise, I SO DUMB LA! SERIOUSLY, I KEEP SCREWING MY OWN LIFE UP MAN. I just ended my own Balancing spree on sat la, i got excess of 80 cents...zzz but marcus worse, that fag keyed "U discount" coupons wrongly, have to pay 21 bucks for nothing. Poor thing. Can you imagine, a stingy guy like him to fork out 21 bucks. LOL. i make him look so bad. But sun today was cool, back to balance.

Life wise, life still suck, when will mine get better?

KS.

180808

2008-08-18T22:15:00.002+08:00

Really studying hard this few days, but just calculated my overall for my maths result and i noticed, i need to score a minimum of 65 to pass my EM3A. Its like a mission impossible to me sia.

Tomorrow is my maths paper le, and i can only do qns 1 2 3. die...lets just leave it on fate and luck ba. MOST likely will be failing le. All thanks to me procrastinating, zzz.

Gotta go back study le. After tonight, this week will start to pick up speed. 3 consecutive days of exam and holiday. Somehow i don't think that i will be enjoying this holiday......

KS

16-08-08

2008-08-16T22:13:00.002+08:00

Afew days didnt blog, exams approaching, and im really afraid that i'll flunk the final exam. Studied hard for DEL, yet after exams, noticed so much careless mistake i made. Maybe like what yongjie said, i might need to take feb 2009 DEL exam again. Actually im really well prepared to fail any of the modules, but, i just dont like losing. I wanna win

Went to school this afternoon and met up with anthony and his gang. For some reason, I dont feel quite blend into their group. But still, a procrastinator like me, need a group of ppl who really study to be with me. No choice, have to 厚脸皮, study with them. Was really kinda ashamed of myself, so old liao still cant study alone. In fact still cant even cope with my studies. Thoughts of signing on to the Navy keep coming into my mind. But i just dont wanna waste 5 years of my time serving NS for the meagre amount of money they reimbursed student like us to serve them. Plus, I think they wont even want me.

Studied for TP and EM3A, I think im ready for TP, but ACDA and maths, need more revision. After this exam, IF i managed to pass, high chance is, another separation of class due to the selection of courses, I went into TP, same as most of the people i know in poly year 1. But people change. Somehow like what clement said, most of us are not like year 1 anymore. KS is no longer like the KS who can joke and laugh criticism off anymore. And for some reason, i feel a certain change in me. I dont really like to socialize anymore. Truth is I think i'm better off alone now. Not even looking forward to next year classmate. I dont know why.

Dont worry, the guy who posted crap in my tagboard, got more acne..you know who you are.

Was a relieved yesterday as national wushu competition come to an end for my event. Me and marcus came out third of the 4 participating teams. We lost by a small margin of 0.07/8, i cant remember. And the reason we lost was, i think i wasnt composed enough for the competition. Like marcus said, my 2nd time in major comps. so nervous for? Yet, to the ending of the routine, fear got the better of me and i kinda go really fast. Marcus cant keep up with me and the ending part was screwed all thanks to me. I wanna win so much, yet we lose cuz i wasnt ready. 编号 774 最后得分， 7.88, was kinda depressing to hear that. I know in my mind, we can do better. Seen the video taken by coach, the start was fantastic, but halfway through i got tired and momentum slowed down and ending was screwed, I got nervous and...Nevermind, its all over.

Now whats important is my upcoming examination. KS, this is your really last chance to make up for all the slacking throughout the 15 weeks of school previously. U MUZ DO WELL!

Now that competition is over, I can finally concentrate on my exams. Another thing is, sorry mathew, i think the other day i was too much in my words, keep putting all the blames to you. Like the instructor said, I should have checked before moving off. Even w/o the points, i also fail the prac..Sorry again..

Lastly, Guni, thx for your concern i know i can count on you if i need anything. Same applies to you, I'll feed bao bao and mush mush so much that they grow fat by 2kg by the time you come back..hahs.

sandy, nvm that tagger, that going-to-be 16 yo tagger will get a really big birthday bash from me, his bday is coming..this few days no time emo, schedule really tight.

weeli, i didnt know u read my blog. omg, cant post so much poly happenings here, later u see...

bye peeps, and thx for all the concern.

KS.

14/08/08

2008-08-14T15:30:00.003+08:00

Went to BBDC and have prac with matt, he got 20 points and i got 18. Actual is 28, but 10 points is a technical fault that i got it, so not counted xD. Prac was smooth, went past all the courses smooth except, E-brake.

My right foot, like usual, came down and right leg dropping off the foot rest is equivalent to IMMEDIATE FAILURE, and was really pissed at it. I thought i fail already and didnt really bother abt all the procedure anyhow check liao. Back in debrief, the instructor didnt fail me immediately fail me, infact he only give me 2 demerit points for right leg coming down. thats about all..

13/08/2008

2008-08-13T14:49:00.002+08:00

Hi peeps, been awhile since i blog. even though the incident passed 1 week liao, still feeling very down but very happy to know that around me there are still some many friends with me, sad to see, those friends whom i meet up with everyday cant sense anything wrong with me, its those frenz like jason, fred and matt cheering me up since last tuesday. I'm very to know u guys

Its depressing, how pathetic my life is. I dare say, i got way loads of peeps i know (casual friends).
But 19 years that im alive, i got NOT EVEN 1 close friend. YES I REALLY MEAN NOT EVEN 1. i try blending in with Zss wushu guys, sadly i notice we are not of the same league. I tried to mixed around with LLJ and guys. Sadly to see, im so insignificant to them except when they lack 1 player to start mahjong, they will remember me. Since sec 1, i've never really got class spirit.I live pass secondary as a lone self, with no commitment to any of my classmate. I don't know who see me as their friend and who just think im annoying. But something i know for sure, im very sensitive towards the action others gave me. Primary school was fun, all of us played blind mice after school everyday even during PSLE period. And those who know the dark secret inside me, i'm very grateful, none of you laugh at me jus because of it.What i least expected is people that actually laugh at me because of it are from secondary school.

Most of you might be wondering, what is it?

well, im brought up single-handed by my mum, my parents separated back when im just K2, I grow up with my sister fighting, naturally our relationship aint really fantastic. And without a dad, my mum painstakingly work to bring us up, what she fail to notice is that, im growing in a family with no family warmth. My house is just like a hotel for me to change and sleep. However, now that im older, i just wanna laugh this bad childhood off.But i cant. i simply cant forget how it feels like in primary school, when chinese essay topic was "My Family", i simply do not know how to start. I simply dont know whats 家庭温暖 for the past 12 years. Whats making it worse is that THE DUMB ESSAY QUESTION COMES UP EVERY YEAR! There is this emptiness inside me that needs to be filled. Without my dad in my life for 12 years, I simply forgotten the true meaning of dad. In primary school, few know this secret of mine, and those who know didnt mock at me. But in secondary school, i thought when i found my first close friend, confide in him, and he just used this to mocked at me when we quarrel.

"SHUP UP LA U FATHERLESS CHILD"
"ASK YOUR FATHER TALK TO ME LA"
''get a dad before you talk to me''

Since then, i start to keep this to myself, and all this years of keeping it to myself, there is this patch in my mind, that cannot be erased anymore. Till sec 3, i got to know marcus and frequent his place. It was then, i finally felt family warmth. It was then i felt what a complete family was.
It was then, I see what a dad is. His family taught me alot of things, remember once, Marcus's mum asked me, if i hated my dad, but deep down in me, i didnt know how to reply her. She asked me if all this years im alright surviving without my dad. i merely replied that i've gotten use to life without him, his absence didnt affect my growing up. At that instance, i know i lied.

I'm very much affected by his absence, sometimes i just wonder if my childhood would be so bad if my dad didnt abandon us for that thail bitch. If not for him, my mum health wont have deteriorate so much over the years. if not for him, i wouldnt be mocked at by others. But if not for him, I wouldnt be so independent. If not for him I wouldn't be growing up all by myself. To be so lonely up till now.

Just as i thought to myself, maybe w/o a dad wouldnt be bad, i know i got lots of frens. But just as i took a second look, i got none. NONE whom i can call them my GROUP of friends. None to even help me fill this emptiness. Its not too much to ask for a friend who would just go out together, shop or catch a movie and slack the day off is it?

I dont think im gonna laugh for a long time.. I think thats enough of me whining.

KS, life sucks, but it goes on.

Next to update, im at prac 5.2 for my bike taking with matt this coming thurs. after that, 6.01, 7.01, 8.01 and then TP, 4 more to go...JIAYOU!

another thing is,
15/08/08 DEL exam
19/08/08 EM3A
20/08/08 TP exam
21/08/08 ACDA

Didnt know if i should publish this. To be publishing this for public viewing, would i be able to continue and face my life.

p.s Jason, now I know how you feel when u publish your post...

07/08/08

2008-08-08T00:23:00.001+08:00

feeling better then past 2 days, still in my heart, 还有一口气 cant swallow it. went to skool, revise for maths pon acda, go for foop come back home. went bbdc to take 5.01, thxs to my pillion, she suck thus making me look exceptionally good, and so i pass, cock with mathew making me feel even better will elaborate on 5.01 when im feeling better. bye.

sucks

2008-08-06T18:43:00.000+08:00

still feeling very fuck up and frustrated.. no mood blog, bye

What you want from me?

2008-08-05T20:29:00.004+08:00

wth u want from me, you argee upon the comp, then u back out now and spoil my day. Yes i flare up just now. WHY!? cause YOU refused to train properly w/o jiao lian, then jiao lian call us u disappear. cmon la we both not kids liao la, the last time we fought u asked me to grow up. I think you should ponder wonder have your thinking mature as much as mine la.

Totally in a foul mood now even though there are news to be happy about. YOU totally spoil my day. Like i said last time la, if you think im too much of a busybody interfering with your life, tell that IN MY FACE, i hate it when your action dont suit your words. FUCK YOU UNDERSTAND!

NUFF said, super duper foul mood now no more blogging in case more vulgarities come out.

I SO FEEL LIKE WHACKING YOU. AT LEAST YOU KNOW I SO WANNA KNOCK SOME SENSE INTO YOU FUCK THIS... FUCK MY LIFE! FUCK THOSE HYPOCRITES AROUND ME!

are there even someone who care for me with their actions instead of their words...

@ that idiot who did this, your IP is logged in my cbox and for being a retard, UR BANNED!

Money Not enough 2

2008-08-04T23:17:00.005+08:00

WooHoo... Just came back from watching money not enough 2, Its freaking hilarious, With all the spoken dialect and funny scenes. I strongly recommend you guys to go watch. Movie later k, let me update this few days event.

About bike prac, hmm chionging my prac becoz mathew waiting for me to go 5.1 with him, his RTT coming on monday and he wants to finish it before he enlist for NS. He is really a typical cockster on the msn la. Finally met my match liao, and of course, he need to train more b4 cock-ing with me. =p. AND AND AND...because of mathew, tmr morning have to book session 3 prac 4.2...haiz in mid afternoon, where i have to endure the heat and suntan. although no lesson but feeling super lazy to go prac, then chiong back school for TP revision then chiong back home for wushu then go back school again. SO MATT...U OWE ME 2 FULL TANK! hahas

About school, hmm went to school this morning for DEL, dont understand a thing even thought his going through past year paper. So feel like wasting my time there, then went over to FOOP to show that fag my program. Bloody program cant run with the index 0 sian. Feel lazy again, went over marcus place slack, meaning i pon ACDA lecture and tutorial AGAIN!~ yea AGAIN~!. And thoughts of skipping TP lecture tomorrow just strike my mind, going through past year paper...shld i skip? =/, would i go there and waste my time again?...haiz im just plain lazy.

About Movie!!!...THAT SHOW IS DEFINITELY NOT FOR PEOPLE WHO IS UNDER 16 W/O PARENTAL GUIDANCE !!! Its full of crap vulgarities and hokkien BUT ITS REALLY WORTH TO WATCH LA! Watch with KM, KB, my ah kim and ah gu...think i forgot to pay them the money for the tickets sia..lol i went there late =x Thing is i notice, Jack Neo movie going more and more hokkien version and they always touch on real life experience, got 1 part of the movie really trigger my feeling. Those who have watch would know. My tears was welling up during that part, abit of thinking went past my head but i laugh it off after cos the scene is realli realli funny. LOL

Quote of the movie:
"Other countries government get money from their citizen, our government "suck" it from us"

lol eh?...refering to the ERP along the road.

"ah hui, jia ba bueh?"

this part is really really funny la...LOL! go watch it to find out.

also, there are scenes like where they play the national song "one people, one nation, one singapore" saying the pledge then shows the people removing ERP gantries LOL can u imagine we the citizens of singapore, *people marching* pledge ourselves as one united people *removing ERP* and throw them into river then the ending lyrics *we can achieve happiness and progress for our nation." rating for this movie, 4/5 cause i really love this kinda crap shows, alot of life story and emotions triggered too.. its cool, so GO WATCH IT GUYS!

alright thats all night ppl...

PS: mathew, u want the song for fall you?...u know what i want in return eh..=x

Lunar 7th mth

2008-07-31T23:41:00.002+08:00

YAY...just reach home..lets see what i did today, hmm, alarm went off at 7am this morning, feeling fatigue and extremely lazy to go for class, i stretch out my arm, press this really small button on top of my alarm clock, pull up the blanket and continue my beauty sleep. Once again, i pon my maths and Tp tutorial, as well as ACDA lecture, went for FOOP go to through exam paper for aug 8 FOOP exam. Thoughts of exam keep coming to me, yet my attitude absolutely slack off. Who the hell will PON lesson and tutorial nearing exams, it all depends on god and sheer luck now. Of course, needa study hell lots on my own.

FOOP ended fast and i'm like home at 4.45, same old routine, on comp, go tudou and watch HK drama again. Received Kai MEng call at around 5.30, his going plaza to study. Thought it would be good to have study buddy so i off comp, pack up and left. On the way to plaza saw ming zhou and jiexing, sat down with them talk cock, then realised, shyt..too late liao, cant go meet them, and there goes....nv study again.

How to cope with oncoming exams with this kinda discipline and attitude? *PRAY HARD*. Left for 117 take dinner then go bai bai, tmr lunar 7th mth liao, and my extremely pandang mum will surely start to nag.

"No Swimming"
"cannot learn bike "
"dont go out too late"
"blah blah blah"

omg la...cmon mum, this is 21st century alright? Its like lunar 7th month, not the end of the world k. Take it as per normal. For what i believe, ghost are always around us 24/7. Not just this month. Take it easy alright. They won't harm me if i dont disturb, of course, gonna control my mouth and dont shoot off and say unnecessary craps.

hmm.. going for shower then watch 1 more episode of HK drama b4 i go to bed now...signing off... =D

YAY...

2008-07-30T17:41:00.002+08:00

Finally found a skin i like, Still, the blog is still under construction but oh well, blog abit. Just got back from my prac 3.02. Next time, I will never never EVER book session 4, THE SUN IS HANGING ON THE SKY, SO BIG AND HOT!!...got part of my hand not covered by my arm socks and gloves, now i got a tanned over there..zzz. Prac starts at 2.10pm, i left home at 1.45..lol. Mum saw me carrying a helmet out and start probing.

"Going where?!"
" out lo..."
"whose helmet"
"My friend de"
"GOING RIDE RIGHT!"
"NO LA...sit bus go"

i dont think she know that i'm carry the helmet going BBDC for prac. in fact, i think she thinks that i'm lying, who the hell would take helmet go out, and take bus..lol. Today prac 3.02 take by C W Lim again. Wah seh, see him i damn happy sia, firstly his good la, but also strict. 3.01 taken by him also, my pylon fail by .5 second he also fail me... but second try on 3.01 also by him and easily pass. Yea ok 3.02 first try was alright, warm up round follow by briefing and practise. Freaking hard la..he say i close throttle too early, somemore when he grading at the end, i press too much rear brake, skid 2 times. Plus a few times engine stalled and braking distance too far out. Throughtout the whole prac, he keep "NO.2 your throttle", "No.2 your eyepoint","NO.2 hold your brake dont let go"...In my mind, i thought i'm gonna fail again.

When he say the prac ended, i really sian diao, i thought im gonna fail for sure so many mistake, somemore got a cb car instructor at the zebra crossing suddenly run pass, im like 5m away travelling at 50km/h, i horn at him liao open throttle pass him, he go tell my instructor i nv give way at predestrian crossing..nb. next time i wont horn at him liao, i knock him down then say sorry...=x

BUT BUT BUT...when in the holding area, 5 ppl he debrief, 2 pass 3.02 ^^.. on first try somemore...happy sia.. after failing 2.1 four times, 2.2 one time, 3.01 one time and 3.02 pass at the first try!!!... so long nv had this feeling sia..haha.

another thing to happy about..my IS MODULE ENDED!!! wee, coming together with this happy news is that today IS last quiz, 30% weightage, I FLUNKED IT !!!!..omg la flunking alot of module and quiz liao...KS U MUST START BUCKING UP AND PULL YOUR ANKLE SOCKS HIGHER THAN SOCCER SOCKS LIAO, IF NOT U CANT MAKE IT FOR EXAM!!!!!!!!!

3 CHEERS FOR KS!!!
JIA YOU!
JIA YOU!
JIA YOU!

Alright guys, dont type so much, cause some botak bookman says my 2nd post too long..=x

Debarment period over

2008-07-29T00:26:00.002+08:00

Wee...debarment period finally over, today pon ACDA again...now can pon till happy also nvm liao. Haix, But dunno exam come can cope anot. Receive matthew ( a guy i know from BBDC) sms, wah lao, he go prac 3.02 bo jio, pass himself. Still say steady pass prac together =x. ok la, cant blame him too much, dont know him that well also.

My Ah ma come back from hospital liao, every morning my aunt come over my place to look after her, now i got free alarm clock cause the time my aunt have to come is the time im leaving for skool..lol.

Ok la, today a short post can liao, tomorrow got 2 test coming up, CCT and DEL prac, gonna study le. take care

p.s, SANDY!!!! how to put tag board.. =x u famous liao, my blog specially highlight ur name

2008-07-26T23:04:00.002+08:00

Well, what can i say, went to watch red cliff with marcus and gang last night at JEC, hmm 12.20am show. Meet up with YL, Marcus, Anthony, Kiong Huat and bloody dao BX at marcus hse. That moron took 1 hour to come back to panjang from plaza singapura, anyway he come back early also no point, lol red cliff start at 12.20. Anyway went over their place and yl was already there, Xing Ying saw me keep ah chek ah chek calling out for me.

Big shot bx came at abt 11pm nv see BC. Bx says his mum ki siao again, dont let BC come out. Then i came up with a wonderful idea. 6 of us go up BX hse and "rescue" BC. If his mum see 6 ppl waiting outside the door for BC sure let him go. =x but ultimately, BC decided to slp at home...zzz wad a fag.=/

Everyone was ready to go. Looking pretty forward to the show at first. Marcus's dad drove us there and we reach at abt 11.30, went up to buy the tickets. Wah seh, when picking seats all crowd around and see me pick then when paying money stupid marcus says... "ZHAO ZHAO ZHAO!!" then all run away..knn, LL then i folk out the money first lo.

Then we loiter around the NTUC there and finally settle down at the mac, talk cock abit, suan BX abit then went up for the show, bought combo 3 shared with YL. Their pop corn was freaking BIG LA!!! The cup bigger than my head lo. Halfway through the show, me and YL eat the pop corn till want vomit liao..lol so we pass around the pop corn. Somehow, that show didnt turn out as fantastic as i imagine, 1 hour after the show start, i start feeling restless liao.

First time watch movie feel restless sia, and just when i get interested in the show, STUPID SHOW ENDED!!! WITH THE MOST EXCITING PART.. Guess thats just straegy to make movie goer go back for the movie, so the director can earn more money...zzz

After the show, marcus phone his dad down, slowly send 1 by 1 go home, reach at 3.30am took a shower and fell asleep, but morning miss my bike practical la..wah lan waste 23 bucks sia. Somemore prac 3.2 very easy to pass de leh woke up at 11 when my prac is at 8am. sian

woke up no mood to study again, went to maple abit then watch 溏心风暴. watch till about 4.15 go shower and work.

Reach NTUC at 4.40pm faster memorise the fruits liao go prepare the cash. omg, today work infront of vincent and behind sandy. Somehow i notice, this few weeks, its always sandy infront and behind me..lol, well at least working with her is better then working with others. LOL . Work halfway my mouth itchy, so.... i close my counter go buy sweets lol. using the money in my pencil case. Come back only see this cb auntie. Everyweek see 1 can ruin my day sia.

And seriously la, i only work on weekends, can those troublesome auntie stop finding trouble with the NTUC cashiers?... Fancy arguing with the cashier becoz of the NTUC machine overcharging u. Its the FUCKED UP machine, Dont take it out to us leh. Plus guess wad, over 5 cent!!! screwed u la auntie, next time u want 5 cent, bend down at the counter look under the table. sure got more then 10 cent la. making a fuss out of 5 cent.zzz

Worked from 5 - 10 today with 6.7k sales, not bad sia..haha and once again i balanced!!! for like erm........straight 19 times liao..lol think im getting 100% accuracy for month of june. wee, gonna win julie lee liao...haha

but still, something inside my heart is stirring up, making me mood swing time to time. haiz... people mood swing they show it, i mood swing i have to put on a fake mask and continue with things. haiz..

thats all now. dont think my blog got reader yet. LOl i mean, who would view a new blogger with a lengthy post every time..hah.

FIRST POST!!!

2008-07-24T11:24:00.000+08:00

Yea ok , finally decided to start blogging. starting at this time kinda stupid.
11.24am, miss my bloody class and totally lost the mood to go school..zzz
but my attendance is like shyt liao how to PON!!.
Bad start for poly this year, 14-04-2008 stomachache,.
The day after hospitalised. freaking hell, and i totally lost the mood to study liao. how? Actually meeting mdm at 12pm to teach me fourier series. Guess today pon liao...

They say chuan dao qiao tou zhi ran zhi, but my boat sinking sia. I dont know how am i going to scrap through my year 2.1 sia, feeling very very tired with all the tight schedules.
2 more weeks to final exam 3 more weeks to wushu competition and 1 more month for me to complete my bike practical to 5.01. so tight schedule sia.
Guess its just me not managing my time well enough. sadly still, i so lack of self discipline, i drew up a timetable to follow and study before exam, yet, last night go mahjong with LJ and NK again. This morning overslp, ask jeremy help me sign attendance. wake up liao no mood go school, maple till now decided to blog for the very first time ever since blogspot was founded YEARS ago.

Really depressing to see my grade compare to last year drop so much. Last year i got 5 Bs 1 D and 2 Cs, this year got 4 Ds and 1 fail...stupid me.

Life is so tiring la. Like boon bing said, our freaking smart government put us through minimum of 13 years of education and another 2 or 3 yrs to pursue a higher degree in poly, Jc or ITE. But, in all cases with the growing standard of living in singapore, diploma holder will soon be cleaning the toilet, undergrads gonna be office boy. The rest of the people can sit at home wait for government to support them. MOST of the child in singapore undergo 13 yrs of studies, how much do we actually use them in our daily life. Plus, studying is such a drag!

Seriously, who in the world actually enjoyed studying? Marcus hate studying and preferred to stay at home DRIFT CITY everyday, sandy hate her teachers in school, i hate books. Why do we have to study so much!

i think i KP too much in my first post. Thats all folks. Till when i decided to post again

BYE!!